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Hey Layla, things are going okay. I am still going through a lot of different emotions due to the death, but I am trying to stay positive for my kids. Other than that, just busy with appointments all the time and always overwhelmed with getting everything done. Thank you for asking, and I hope things are well with you. Love ya <3
Hi Layla sorry I have been so sick right down in bed. I have no energy and so depressed with my illness and xmas. I can say you gave me the best xmas gift ever, your friendship Thank you. I went back to Dr. and she was a little upset her MA did not get me into the liver specialist. She forgot to male me an appointment and she want her to make the appointment a priorty. Well finally the Dr. she wanted me to see called before I even got home but they called again the next morning and the only time they could get me in was on Jan 2 and they wanted to put me on a cancellation list so if someone canceled there appointment they would call me and get me in sooner. I told them I could not do that since I have no car and could not afford a taxi and I have no one I can count on to come get me to get there. So I have to suffer till my appointment. That should make my xmas even more depressing, but it is okay since I spend it alone anyways. I was going to try to get me a cheep little tree tree this payday but that fell through since my money went to all my co pays and medicine. That's life sad but true. I try so hard and something always breaks me down. I wish I could even afford to eat like I should but food here is so expensive and the only store I can get to is across the street and a block down and wow it has been so cold here and going in my wheel chair makes it even colder cause it makes it windier. Oh well could thing my attitude is always saying nothing I can do so deal with it the best I can.The Dr. said my liver is so enlarged even more so since my last CT scan I had 3 or 4 months ago and that it is grown into my stomach and I have very little room left so I get full fast. I just have to eat alot of small meals and my blood work she did on my liver was really high. My sugar is still not coming down. My Dr. said she has never had a patient try so hard to get and try to stay healthy like me and she is amazed on how tough I really am, which is good. I really try so hard to stay positive but sometimes it is so hard to do. I did get a surprise though which made me so happy. My11 yr. old grandson I have not seen since march cause they moved down south next to Vegas Nevada He was crying and telling me how much he misses me and loves me. Him and his brother who is almost 13 who is also my grandson have always loved staying with me sometimes even for a week at a time they even at one time asked if they could live with me and that is cause I always played with them and gave them my undivided attention and always been there for them no matter what. But there is no way there mother my daughter would ever let them. I told them not to ever let there mother know that cause she loves thems so much and it would hurt her if she knew they felt like that. Besides no way could I afford to take care of them not on my what I get from ssi. When I was working though I always would spen my day off with them so there mother and dad could have time alone and I use to buy them some school clothes or if they needed anything else. Don't get me wrong there mother is a ggod mom with them she just has her priorty's wrong sorry about my spelling lol I am typing with my teeth out. See I still have a sense of humor.All my grandkids 5 of them sure do love me which lifts my spirits. It is so awesome to be a grandma. My daughter who sees a liver transplant Dr. always tells people how thankful she is for her mother cause even though she is an adult I am always there to help her when she is sick even when I am sick myself cause I never complain and I am like the entergizier bunny and that I am so good to her daughter. So not evrything is bad in my life I am so thankful for for so many things and tell myself everyday it could be worse. By the way how is your tooth ache? Also why don't you go to the dentist? No matter what take care of your teeth mine went bad due to health and wow I miss them I hate false teeth. I have a hard time with them especially eating good thing I don't have much of an appetite lately lol. Remember if you want you can call me on the phone and if you do you have to leave your name or I won't answer due to so many spams calling me so I never answer unless it shows there name. 801-679-9274 I really do hope you xmas this year will be the best and you get all you want cause your an awesome caring ;ady. Thanks for all you do I don't know if I ever told you this but I always wanted to be a nurse every since I was a little girl.